I will love you, the way you have loved me

Dear Body of Mine,

I sat down on my couch tonight, and it hit me; how often I tell you how angry and disappointed in you that I am, or how tired I am of living inside of you, perhaps even how much I tell you I wished you never existed.

But in this moment, sitting to rest at the end of a very long day, I don't want to tell you anything but thank YOU. When I sat down to think about it, the conversations I have with you, the only words I usually verbalize are typically ugly in nature. Never of gratitude. And I feel like today, that ends. I need you to know, I do not resent you or harbor ill wishes. I do not see you as the enemy, not anymore. You are more than any diagnosis or medical challenge.

I have wronged your righteous ways. I have not honored you in all the glory you provide. For many years of life, I have resented you. I have truly despised you! I have not fully seen you, until now, and for that I am sorry. I had no one to blame, and so I gave that to you, oh sweet body of mine. I treated you, as if you begged for this curse. For this life with physical limitations. And I do know, you did not wish this upon yourself. All you have really done, is continue to fight this battle for me, day by day, challenge by challenge. I have seen you as the enemy, when in fact, you are my fellow Warrior. 

Thank you body, for having endured all that you have in order for me to be here today. Thank you body, for never giving up on me fully, even though I know it hasn't been easy. Thank you, for some how always getting me thru what I swore I could no longer endure. Thank you, for fighting regardless of the battle. Thank you for being my rock, in the midst of hurricanes. Thank you for loving me, more than I have every really loved you.

I vow to be better for you. To speak better to you. To love you BETTER! Despite what may lay ahead. I vow to be your very best friend, until our last day. Like you have soooo willingly and unquestionably done for me this whole time. Thank you for fighting every day, every minute, every breath. Just Thank YOU BODY! 

I will love you from here on out.